Cheat day

Yesterday I got a fish burrito. It made me violently ill. Next cheat day is Tuesday. No fish burrito.

Bajeebus

294.6 this morning, down 14lbs. It's cheat day too, I'm getting a fish burrito. I've actually been dreaming about one.

Had 2 seperate doctors tell me you can't lose weight...

If you are diabetic. Basically their explination was that as long as your post perandial and fasting sugars were high it was impossible. Being the ornery contrarian I am I thought to myself "Horseshit!!" If I didn't eat for 6 months and only drank water and took vitamins I would still be 300 lbs???

I think what they mean is the average person WONT do what's needed to lose weight. They look at overall statistics and say that it is physically and psychologically very improbable that people in general will ever totally revamp their lifestyles. So medicinal management is the only real long term solution.

I have generally fit that description my whole life, I let myself get stuck in ruts and pretty much stay there.

However I have dropped a tad over 12 lbs. My weight was 308.8. I am 296 dead nuts right now. My goal is 190 by 3-17-2011. Right now I'm doing Lyle macdonalds version of a protien sparing modified fast. It sucks green monkey nuts, but I've only got 11 more weeks to go. If I can't make it through 11 tough weeks how am I ever going to adopt a truly healthy and moderate life in the long term??

I'm not making any promises though. I generally follow a nutrition program for about 2 weeks and screw it up.
So in that regards the dogs are right.

Huh...

I didn't drink the day before St. Pattys day and haven't yet so that's what...8 day.
Hell no wonder I feel better.

Hell yeah.

Broke 300 lbs. I'm 298 with my
clothes and shoes on. And after I
chugged a ton of water this
morning. I can immediatly tell when I get over 300. I feel like ca-ca.

Protien sparing modified fast.

Trying this again, just to kick start the weight loss. was really good today. Took 7 grams of fish oil, was going for ten.

With this move everything feels different. The kids seem like they want to be around us more.
The kids and money situation bother me one hell of alot less. I
was in withdrawl today and didn't snap or get angry with anyone. I had a little woodpecker in the back of my head hammering at me to get a drink, but I didn't. And I worked out. Simple little workout smith machine squats 3 sets, lat pulldowns 3 sets, incline dumbell press 3 sets. Nothing impressive. Lyle macdonald says that twice a week on the psmf is about all a person can handle. I've got
a head full of ideas as usual but I'm going to keep them to myself for now. I'm
going to blog what I actually do, cause a hard lesson I've had to learn is this. Daydreaming has got me no fucking where in my life.

'sup?

Hey Christine I can't reply correctly with my phone, wich is how I'm blogging at the moment. But thanks for the welcome back.

No issues with my shoulder or elbow. Wich is good. Legs are more sore than my upper body, go figure.

Workout post

Been a while. We got the keys to the apartament today. I checked out the apartament gym. Bench machine worked up to a top
set. Then did some rest/pause benching. Lat pull down worked up to a top set and did
some rest pause pulldowns. Left elbow and right shoulder acting up either it was the machine wich I don't like anyway or I shouldn't have done rest/ pause only first workout in a while. I just wanted to get sore and get it out of the way.Well anyway then I decided to do something productive so I did 4 sets of thrusters with 2 30 pound dumbells. Those suck ass.
I'm 297 lbs today, I was 308.8 and my fasting glucose was 138. The doc
is going to put me on metformin I think untill
I get my blood sugars in the normal levels. He says I'll drop weight rapidly for a month or two on the meds. We'll see....

Permanent access to the internet

Finally, a permanant link to technology. Barb got me an iPhone for valentines day. I'm still figuring this bad boy out. I swear it smarter than me.